26 Years Later

Number 26. I never imagined what I would be doing when I turned 26. I didn't think I would still be living in Ohio and I didn't think I would still be trying to figure out what I'm going to do with my life. I thought I would be married. I thought I would be in the middle of my career and I thought that all the hard questions in life would be so far behind me that I would actually need to ponder on them for a while in order to remember what they were.I can only control so much and for that which I can't control, I become anxious. Honestly, I don't know what happens next. There are so many different possibilities and I can't actually fathom what they all mean. I care about my future and I can about my fate. I care about other peoples' futures and fates as well and part of me wants them to intermingle and another part of me wants them to soar in such fantastic ways.I have so much going for me that sometimes I don't know how to process it all. I'm reminded of the charge I presented my audience with during my TED talk. I said "you need to step out into the uncertainty-outside of your comfort zone." I have to remember that.I didn't get this far by treading in the shallow end, I already took a risk-when I moved to Ohio. Is it possible that I found and obtained everything I was looking for? Is it possible that greater things await? I'm certain they do and the sooner I remember that, the sooner I'll be content with where I'm headed.No one said I had to have all the answers, but at least now I know where to find them.