The Change in the Game

Game Change (noun):

It's what they call it when something completely changes the way that something is done, thought about, or made. Well as of lately the game that is my life has changed. For the better, which is a good thing. Since I graduated I found myself with little ambition, no real self-motivation, lacking in spiritual consultation, a dead-end job, addictive behaviors, stress for the ages and deferred dreams. It took a powerful statement to get me moving again and you know what- I heard it loud and clear. I did get moving again. Wanna know how I did it?

Phase One: Made an effort to remove certain restraints from my life. 

This included wiping out more than a thousand people off of Facebook. It was important to me that I surround myself with people who I knew would help to build me up and encourage me. There were so many people that held me back and for the longest time I allowed certain people to hold me back. I'm working on keeping these kinds of restraints from me because I found all that it did was build a wall between me and God and as the most important relationship in my life, that was one area I couldn't compromise on.

Phase Two: Releasing myself from addictive behaviors that allowed stress and dissension into my relationship with God.

This included reaching out to people when I found myself in places so low that I couldn't pull myself out. I had to quit, and am still working on not being so self reliant that is poses hardships on me my relationships with other people. In some areas of my life the stress walked away. God delivered me from so much in so little time and I can't thank him enough for that.

Phase Three: Reignited my dreams and pursued them with full force.

While I was always the one to plan everything, some things, I learned, don't always go the way we want. In the end, it is God whose Will and plans are all that really matter. And whenever our plans contradict His plans- His plans trump. Bottom line- sometimes we place things in our lives that contradict His will and that can include friends, a job, tangible objects and other interpersonal relationships and while it may seem hard to part with those things, we must remember that His reign is supreme. Once I was able to cope with the losses (and it didn't take as long as you might think) an overwhelming sense of security and peace overcame me. I registered for the LSAT because after all, getting into Law School- that is my dream. And it's one I fully intend to pursue [with His devine blessing of course ;) ]

Now what?

Well, I'm not completely sure. I'm not always privy to what He has up his sleeve, but I know it's never dangerous to take a step forward when He's right there with you. Walking into the unknown with Him beside you is one of the most comforting things ever. What I do know is that this is the Game Change and He continues to save me...in all kinds  of amazing ways. I know that He will always be there for me and with me, through the thick and thin, the good and bad, the terrible and wondrous...And for that I am proud.